so i'm a crybaby. i admit it. and i'm a tad bit obsessive-compulsive. but the truth of the matter is that i'm fine for the most part. i have an eating disorder that i talk about on here constantly (cause i can't talk to anyone here). and i have issues with intimacy and trust. but i was doing good. then i had to go sleep with seri and turn into one of those girls that doesn't want to be needy, but really is. that doesn't want to show vulnerability but she's extremely vulnerable. i put up this fricking facade, that if you saw me on the street or with my friends, you'd never know what was going on. i'm so sensitive that i have to do that or i'd be a walking wound. and i can't have that. so today i'm deciding to get some shit done.
1. call the car company about fixing my car
2. fax insurance papers to the car place
3. finish filling out my applications for school
4. start my essays for school (to be finished this weekend)
5. get some serious work done at work (i'm starting to drown now)
this is the beginning of a new day. if i can't stop the world to get this stuff done. the world is going to have to hold on tight, cause it's not stopping me. at some point, you have to pull yourself up at the boot straps and get it done, right? so that's what i'm doing today.
marking shit off the list. thinking about how much i want seri a little less.
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