it's another seri story...
it's going to be confusing but i need to get it out of me and well, you're the lucky audience.
seri and i were still hanging out and occasionally sleeping together. but no one was supposed to know about it besides the people i like to call the "givens". in this case, i told the girl that i work with and a girl that i used to work with and i assumed that he'd told a guy that he works with and his best friend that lives like 3 miles from me. apparently, he's running his mouth to more people than that which is why i'm so pissed today but saw coming. (have i mentioned before that i'm stupid?)
so the friday before last, a girl's husband hit on me at a company happy hour we went to. we were sitting at the bar together and he kept mentioning my boobs. then he kept asking to look down my shirt. then we went to a girl's townhouse for the "after party". not just us, but everybody from the bar - and even at the girl's house, he was all up in my space. but at this point, he was asking me to sleep with him. it was not cool. it got to the point where it was scary and he was pulling on me and just wouldn't take no for an answer. this guy is friends with seri and is married to a girl that i've been becoming better friends with. i was really mad about that. spitting mad. and i figured that seri had been runing his mouth to his friends and mentioned us sleeping together. not only to the "givens" but to other people too.
this is when i got concerned because it takes a lifetime to build a reputation and seconds to destroy one. that's what my parents have always taught me and that's what i live by. which is why i didn't want anyone knowing about us from the beginning.
well, while i was in philly visiting family, a friend we'll call A, calls to tell me that she talked to the girl who's husband hit one me (we'll call M) and M basically asked her if seri and i had slept together. at this point, i know for sure that seri's been running his mouth because there was no way for her to know or even suspect anything about it since i don't talk to her about stuff like that. so the only way she could have known is if seri told her husband and her husband told her. it sincerely pisses me off and makes me want to get the hell up out of dodge.
so saturday when i got back in to town from philly, seri texted to see where i was, of course, and i didnt' answer. i went to my apartment, turned on the lights and hoped that he'd drive by and see the lights on and realize that i just stood him up to do nothing but sit on my couch. it actually turned out to be the best part of my weekend. but i wouldn't tell him that.
he came up today to talk to me and i couldn't even turn around and look at hi. i was so pissed. he kept asking me what was wrong and usually, i'd just tell him. but today i just said that i didn't even have it in me to talk to him right then and i just really didn't want to talk about it period. so he emailed and asked if i was ok and what happened. he'd said at my desk that it wasn't friendly for me to not return his text and i told him i wasn't feeling all that friendly towards him lately.
so i just emailed him back and told him that i'm done dealing with him. i'm sick of the bullshit. I didn't tell him this, but my reputation is on the line and i'm not willing to kill my rep for him. i'm stupid, but my god...give me a little bit of credit. i like him, but i'll get over it. and if it means that i can't hang out with people because they're primarily his friends or he's going to be around, then so be it. i'm sick of it.
