couldn't sleep last night until about 3 in the morning so i was late to work this morning. always a fun thing to do. but i look cute regardless so that's something. i think it's from all of the stress and ephedrine i've been taking lately.

seri has come up the past two days to see me. probably cause i haven't been texting and all up on his jock as usual. i'm tired of the shit really. i don't even have the energy to text him anymore. it's too much drama for someone that i haven't slept with or really even talked to on the phone at all. he even came into the coffee area because i'd stepped away from my desk to tell me that he wants to set up some time with me. whatever. i'm still really attracted to him but it's annoying as hell to have to wait for him to be available. that's another reason why i think he's still dating that girl he was seeing before. he keeps telling me it's not true but i don't believe him. men that are pursuing you make a point to find out when you're available and want to be with you. he's content to be without me unless he thinks i'm going to sleep with him. i guess it's good that i realize that, but sometimes i wish i didn't.

anywho...it snowed last night. almost 6 inches. gets me in the holiday spirit. i love christmas and hadn't really gotten a chance to get into it yet. but i'm starting to get there. ever so slowly. i just love the buzz and the excitement that people have during this time of year. everything's so exciting. the music is nostalgic and people just realize that they're not the only ones here. that we're all connected somehow. it's so great.