so i went to the party. wore a fab tube top (true green color from old navy), bcbg heels, and some bogari jeans. i was hot - which seri told me repeatedly. but i'm getting ahead of myself now. i got to the club with my friend about 1130 and seri had been there since 10. so when i finally talked to him, he was a little trashed - and by "trashed" i mean, completely trashed...

so i walk in and his friend says he's going to take me over to him but i think he saw what was happening and tried to distract me with a drink. but being the independent woman i am, i thought i'd buy my own drink. so i did. and while i was at the bar - i saw Seri on the other side of the bar making out with some girl. my girl was like "oh no he didn't. " but i was one step ahead of her. i got our drinks and moved right on over to the other side of the bar, tapped him on the shoulder, and said "HAPPY BIRTHDAY!" i don't think he thought i was going to be there (even though i said i was) so the look on his face was priceless. i went to give him a hug and pushed me back a little to get a good look at the outfit (there was a keyhole in the tube top to show some cleavage cause i know he likes that) and then gave me groping hug telling me how hot he thought i looked. the girl he'd been making out with was eying me the whole time - but whatever. i didn't have anything against her personally - i was just pissed at him. anyways - i hugged him and forced him to let go of my hand and went to dance with my friend.

later on, my friend and i went back to the bar to get a shot of Patron and i got another drink - and i didn't notice that he was over beside me at all. i was actually having a great time. then he grabs me and tells me that he thinks i'm hot (again - i sound annoyed but i enjoyed it) and we danced a little. he never dances unless he's gone - and so that was a big clue to me. once again, homegirl is standing to the side waiting for him and looking at me. so i danced with him enough to get him worked up over me a little and then moved it on to the dancefloor.

last call - i went to tell everybody from work bye and said bye to Seri who was looking a mess at this point. i kissed him on the cheek and told him happy birthday again. he said that he didn't want me to leave. that he wanted to come home with me. i told him that he could come to my apt and sleep on the couch but that was it. then he suggested that i go with him to his friend's house. i told him and his friend no and tried to move towards the door. he grabs my hand and tells me again that i look hot, hugs me, and asks again if he can come over to which i whisper in his ear:
me: you knew i was coming tonight right?
him: yeah
me: you knew that i was coming to see you right?
him: yeah
me: so for you to have that girl all up in my face like that was disrespectful. you are not coming home with me. why don't you go home with your little friend? she obviously wants some of whatever you've got.

he gets all frustrated and sighs and finally lets me go.

i understand that we are not dating. so it's not a matter of him being with that girl. it's just a matter of him doing it in my face. his friends AND cousin were both hitting on me that night and i didn't talk to them out of respect for him. so for him to have that girl in my face like that, i find that very disrespectful.

i kind of talked to him this morning about it and he said that he doesn't remember what i'm talking about. he says that he barely remembers me being there. so i think that he thinks that we don't need to talk about it. i told him that i feel like he disrespected me and i think we need to set some boundaries. he hasn't responded yet. whatever. i keep saying that i'm done with him, but i'm not.

blah. there's more to the story but i don't have it in me to talk about it right now. i've been pissed all day and am just now coming down a little. so i'll let you know about that tomorrow.

i think i have a right be upset about this whole thing. and i would like to reiterate that it's not the girl. he can see and be with whomever he wants, but we should have some kind of rules as to whatwe'll do in those situations, right? god it sucks when my type A planner counterpart comes shining through.